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Well, this week has turned out to be an eye opener to a lot of things. Practically find out that my so called “boyfriend” probably has a girlfriend where he is based in Germany. I swear I am never! EVER! going to go out with a lad in the army again! And I have also found out the real reasons why my ex girlfriend broke up with me…. one of the reasons was that she was moving back up to Newcastle and she wouldn’t be able to take the distance. And there is also the issue that she would have if she went out with any bisexual girls, the fact that they like men too. But its something that she will have to work on and get over. I’m glad I’m still mates with her but it hurt me the fact that she came up with lots of reasons for breaking up with me when it was really just one reason which we could have worked out so easily seeing as though I drive….

I know relationships are hard, but the fact that every single time something goes wrong when I least expect it does my head in. I know everyone has relationship problems but this is getting silly. I’m just not going to bother trying until someone actually tries with me, until someone cares for me that much that I know it and that I can trust them.

On another different note, I really want to do some protesting soon, whether its to do with animal rights, or the fact that our government is pissing everything down the drain:  trying to close homes for the elderly so they make them go to private ones which cost a bomb, and that I know from experience, don’t care for the elderly properly. And the fact that they are trying to close the NHS to make everyone go private, closing crisis centres, or just making students pay a ridiculous amount of money for their education….. This country is going down the shitter. The rich are getting richer and the poor are getting even poorer. I read an article that said most of the middle class could end up being homeless because they are not poor enough to get help from the government and they are not rich enough to, well be bale to do everything themselves….. Its something that needs addressing quickly. Not to mention the court system. A guy that starved his two dogs to death and then he tried to dump them in a park, got 12 weeks in jail. Just TWELVE FUCKING WEEKS. I’m sorry but that is definately not enough! He needs to realise what he did was horrifically wrong! Those poor dogs taht depended on him and probably loved him got tortured for a long time. Especially if you think how long it would have taken for them to die a long painful death…. Its so horrible. When I heard about it I could have screamed. WTF is the court system thinking. People who drive with no insurance on teh car probably get longer than what that bastard got.

Anyway I have ranted for too long…. But I think I’m going to get a cat =] I can’t wait




Random Ranting

I thought I may as well just do my usual ranting and see where it takes me.

So I am currently watching Russell Howard’s good news on DVD. Thought I’d put something funny on to put me in a good mood. Because something at work today made me really upset, then I snapped at one of my co workers 😦 and then I felt even more shit because apparently I’m no fun anymore 😦 gutted.

Russell Howard does make me laugh though, some of his humour does go bit too far sometimes though. But none the less it does make me giggle.

I had an amazing conversation with my Nan yesterday about my great gran. We were talking about her life, like where she worked and stuff. She was the Liquorice Queen of Pontefract =] and the local newspaper are doing an article on her. We were talking bout the way she always looked pristine ; her hair done, lovely matching clothes, matching pearls and earrings. How she always used to trim the roses in her garden, have two sweeteners with her really milky tea, let us eat fresh rubarb from out of her garden with sugar 🙂 She was a lovely woman who lived to be 90, she had an amazing life. I will miss her so much, But its sometimes nice to think about the good times not the bad. R.I.P Granny Pem.

On an Absolutely different note, I am going to start taking photographs all the time again. I want to document the world around us as it changes into something else. By that I mean how the landscape is always changing, and people change too. I miss taking photos. Its one thing that makes me feel happy.


On another note, Russell Howard just told a joke about a fox with a hard on….. and how it would look like Anne Robinson with a strap on. Haha it made me laugh so much. So ride but so funny 🙂


Well I haven’t really gone on a rant…… but erm yeah I think that’s it for now 🙂




An update which i should have done long ago…..

I’ve got some things coming up and realised there are far too many things that i want to do in my life….. Well lack of money stops me doing most of them:
I would love to create some type of charity for animal rights, kind of a bit like Peta but not the vegan thing, and I wouldn’t impose vegetarianism on people. But promote animal rights in every way shape and form that I possibly could.
I’d also like to do something to do with LGBT rights, especially in schools because I think its atrocious that in some schools if a child says “what does gay mean?” they have to say it means HAPPY!! I know yes, it did mean happy but what if the child is confused about their sexuality, are they going to deny that child guidance and help? I would love to do a campaign to get sexuality taught PROPERLY in schools, and make children realise that it is ok to be who you are and no one should try and change that.
I’d also like to be a pre school teacher =] I’d love to teach small children art and crafts, painting, and the values of being who you are and not judging other people by what they look like or who they are.
I’d also love to be a photographer. Photograph normal everyday life and show people the true beauty and the true atrocity that is all around us.

Do you think I can do all this on a job which pays me £280 a month…… because I don’t. Unless I do even more hours so instead of my normal two days a week, and the current four days a week I’m doing, I’d have to do even more. Hate having a £6 an hour job, yes I do love where I work, and working with children but it is not enough money to live off… and I want to do so much more with my life.
I know this is probably a very pessimistic blog, but anyone got any ideas of how I could get into doing all these things because I’d love to do them all.

Oh forgot to add. I cannot wait for:
GLEE CON with one of my bestest friends biggrin
And BOARDMASTERS!! Newquay here I come (I’d love to live there) biggrin


Late nights, not feeling in the mood to do any uni work and talkign to friends

Well where do I start.

I haven’t written in my blog for so long and so much has happened that it will take me so long to explain.

Firstly I finally found an amazing person: intelligent, lovely, great personality and pretty hot might I add. Everything was going fine until I feel like I ruined it by being paranoid, which turned out not to be paranoia really. I had good reason to over analyse the relationship. Things went from bad to worse then. And we ended up breaking up but not fully, which was even more confusing. I thought everything was sorted, we talked through all our problems with the relationship and then the person in question broke up with me properly. Then after all that this person still sometimes acts like they are with me, and still wants to be with me but after getting to know me more. Totally and utterly a mind fuck.

So my mind and heart was in absolute pieces.

Oh things can’t get any worse, oh but they can.

On top of that and some family stuff, my mind does not like to work when it comes to doing reading for uni. I cannot focus on reading for more than five minutes even if it interests me. Sleeping and eating pattern are all over the place and when I’m alone I cannot be bothered doing anything in the slightest. The only thing that I can be bothered to do is see my family and friends. Even then I’m like ‘meh’. I have so much work to do for my degree and I cannot find the motivation to get started with it. No motivation for anything these days.

So what do I do? Trip to doctors…………counselling here I come.

One thing I cannot wait for is the LGBT conference in Sheffield. We get to debate about campaigns and issues to do with the gay community. It is one of the most amazing things and I get to meet loads of amazing people. Changing gay lives for the better. I might be even the LGBT adviser for my uni, obviously volunteering but still. Making sure that all gay students at uni get the same experience as straight people and that all their issues are raised and dealt with. Hopefully the rest of the year is going to be better than the first part.

Fingers crossed eh?

Things can only get better.

Leeds Trinity Students Against Cuts

I thought I would take some time to tell you all what is actually happening at my University and most Universities around the country that have been hit seriously by the cuts.


Leeds Trinity is one of the most serious cases where things are going terribly wrong.


Leeds Trinity’s government budget has been cut by 100% because we do not have any stem courses (courses like science and maths). It seems like the government is specifically targeting Universities that have creative or humanities courses the most. I personally could not think of a world with no creativity………..


The effects of this cut would be that lecturers would get sacked. This would mean that the classes would be bigger, so the thing that I found amazing about Leeds Trinity would be lost. The small classes, the one to one with lecturers, the close nit community would be lost.


The 5 deans (people that help Freda, the principal with matters in the departments) have all been sacked. Which is putting a tremendous amount of pressure on Freda, having to deal with everything. So now the University is just run by Freda and Mark Shields.


The business model has been taken into institutes, and now to some, is seen as the norm. it is no longer about education, it is about turning a profit from the student body. It is no longer about knowledge, it is about profit!!


Trinity is living off of borrowed money/profit. Apart from the income of the students, so the tuition fees and accommodation fees, there is no income for Universities. Students could be seen as being used to make sure the universities don’t go under. Students could be seen as just profit, and personally I find that disgusting. I thought it was about giving people a good education and encouraging people to learn and grow as a person, obviously, the student life I was told about is nothing like reality.


If you have a spare moment, check out the Leeds Trinity Students Against Cuts blog, and maybe even pop into the occupation room =]

Hello world! – First Ever Blog!

Well, this is my first time ever blogging and a lot has gone on this week – from my car crash on Monday, to helping Leeds Trinity Students Against Cuts fight the coalition government.


The car crash wasn’t the best part of my week I have to say. I was at a roundabout waiting for a gap, saw one, about to set off and then thought wait a minute, a car is coming, and then BOOM! Driver in an astra behind me just drives into the back of my car. WTF?! Then he asks me are you OK, I respond, I’m OK just a bit shaken up. Then he drives off, no reg. plate details, no insurance- I am officially up the creek without a paddle. The car isn’t in that much of a state, just cracked across the bumper at the back, easily fixed.


The week started to get better when I started back at Uni. Lectures are good, hard work but good. Then I found out about the occupation at Uni. Which is officially amazing. There has never been a protest, rally or occupation until Leeds Trinity Students Against Cuts started. It consists of peaceful protests, rally and occupation. I had my first experience of the occupation last night. We just stay in a room at University and do not leave. There is always someone in the occupation room. Leeds Trinity Students Against Cuts all started back in November with the notional demo down in London, the day that they were voting on rising tuition fees.


The national Demo was an amazing experience that really opened my eyes to the world that we live in. There were up to 70,000 students there which people were not expecting, especially the police. At one point we were at Millbank, where everything started to go wrong. At first, all that happened was we were sat on the floor in front of Millbank, a nice peaceful protest. And suddenly people started to smash windows, set off flares and start fires. I thought ‘I have to get out of here, before it gets really bad’. There was news coverage of someone throwing a fire extinguisher off the top of Millbank, which absolutely disgusted me. In doing that someone could have got really hurt. I understand protesting against the cuts, but harming people that have nothing to do with the coalition government is just ridiculous. After the protest, Leeds Trinity Students Against Cuts was formed.


We had our first ever rally at Leeds Trinity yesterday. We have already made history. It went well. We even managed to wake up some students that think that 1pm is not dinner time, its sleepy time. Apparently they were woken up by the sounds of our chants. At least we got people’s attention.


Today we have a silent disco in the Library, bring your own MP3 and dance the day away – form of people protesting that no one can do anything about. Personally I will be dancing to Rage Against the Machine, which seems very appropriate for what we are protesting against. The coalition government has a lot to answer for, and today we will be getting answers from our local MP who happens to be a Tory.


Today should be fun……….